Some things I want say but cannot say it out loud.
I really did not mean to.
I am very sorry.
I know I am a lousy person.
Please do not shove words into my mouth.
I did not bother to explain myself. To defend myself.
It was a lost cause.
Laksana wau melawan angin.
Sometimes I feel my soul died a long time ago. I feel lifeless most of the time. Speak only when spoken to. Laugh at what was meant to be funny. Cry when it is supposed to be sad. Be good to everyone. I feel empty most of the time these days. Like a donut, I feel empty in the centre.
I am shadow of my former self.
Signing off now.